Daily Reading

The Fool:

The fool's on a new adventure. He's excited and doesn't look where he's going. His dog is there to guide him, making sure he doesn't walk off the cliff, but the fool is lost in the moment. His feelings overwhelm him.
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I'm starting something new and I'm afraid. It's hard letting go and trying something for the first time in a while. I'm afraid it'll get thrown back into my face and I'll be bruised. I'm afraid how to act because I haven't acted this way in a while. I'm afraid to walk off that cliff and have no one catch me. I do feel the doubt, excitement, and anxiety. It's part of the reason why I don't want to take the risk. But I've already taken it. We will see how far I get and if I land on my ass.

9 Card Birthday Spread!

1. Where I am now:

The Hanged Man:

Letting go. Transcendence. Detachment from selfish considerations. Seeing things a new way. This card is about letting go to gain new spiritual awareness. You may look foolish, but you don't care because it makes sense. The book says, "Sometimes we have to submit to some stress in order to allow ourselves to undergo a mental transformation."


2. Where I would like to be on my next birthday:

9 of Swords:

There are always options. I need to look at my problems in a calm way instead of being depressed and freaking out. There are always options. There's always a way out.


3. What empowers me:

The Moon:

This card is about psychic dreams and abilities. Enchantment and spells. Visions. There is a madness in the moon, where reality blurs into delusions and dreams. But sometimes that makes sense. Sometimes things only make sense this way. The world makes sense sometimes in the supernatural. It's the lunatic side, and I'm drawn deeply to it.


4. What I need to create to bring myself closer to my goals:

2 of Swords:

I need to balance the way I guard myself. When I have a goal, I keep disappointment away. I put my defenses up. It can be hard to maintain this defense, but it keeps me sane. It's true that after a while this defense fails and I'm vulnerable.


5. My current material state:

8 of Wands:

Things are finally coming together. I think it's a beginning, not an end.


6. My current emotional state:

The Hierophant:

I need to be open. Lately I've been suppressing my emotions. I haven't shown them or expressed them because I forget to. But I have learned that that can be bad because it feels like I'm neglecting other people. I'm not acting how I should.


7. My current spiritual state:

Ace of Swords:
New excitement and vigor for intellectual pursuits. Developing my learning and finding great mental energy. But make sure I'm not ignoring anything. This has to do with my study of religions.


8. What stands in opposition to my objectives:

8 of Cups:

I need to move on, but I don't want to. I can't help looking back. It's hard to let go. But if I do, I'll be better for it.


9. What I need to do this year to make my dreams come true:

Ace of Cups:

I need to open myself up to creativity and emotions. I need to accept affection and let myself be happy. Use my artistic talents, and let people into my life. Take ideas from the outside. I need to see what happens and go with it. Follow it to wherever it takes me.


*This spread was created by Starfish from Aeclected Tarot.

Daily Reading

Narcissus: Vanity:

A woman stares at her own reflection, ignoring on-lookers. They want her attention, but she can't give it to them if she's fallen in love with her face. There's a Greek myth about Narcissus. In one version, everyone is in love with him, especially a girl named Echo. But Narcissus is so vain that he can't be bothered to notice her. So, Echo doesn't take care of herself and she becomes less than human. So she decides to get her revenge for what Narcissus has done to her. She calls on a goddess named Nemesis and Nemesis decides to make it so the next time Narcissus gazes upon his reflection, he cannot be pulled away. He ends up dying, and I think that he doesn't even mind.
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This once again has to do with my birthday. I'm not being vain; I could care less about my appearance. It's my fear of getting older and living with regrets. That's all I can really say about that. I pretty much thought getting this card was cruel, but it was probably the only one in the deck that could show my feelings in this way.

Q & A Reading

Q: What is my mood right now?

A: Temptations

Oh, this is good. It's funny because it's so accurate. I went to dinner with my family and there was, of course, a cute guy. He looked like he was looking at me the whole time, but he was probably looking at the person across from him, although I wasn't in the booth in front of him but way across. Whatever. This deck knew what was on my mind...

Daily Reading

The Sun:

Horus is the Sun god in Egyptian mythology. This card is about merging light and shadow, consciousness and unconsciousness. Gaining maturity and accepting the shadows of our personalities. This is self-realization.
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Yesterday I found a page I wrote on my feelings regarding my 21st birthday. I was shocked and stunned to see that my fears are the same, exactly a year minus a day later. I haven't changed at all. So ,somehow today my fears have been laid to rest. I am accepting. My problem was a regret of not doing any of the things I always wanted to do. I always tell myself that it's not too late. But I've been saying that since I was 18. It's just not true. Now that my plans are working I will get what I want and be able to do the things I've regretted not doing. I hope to succeed, and I'm not just saying that for some cold comfort.

Daily Reading

Queen of Pentacles:

She wears a castle as her crown. Her home is where her power lies.

This card is me, exactly. In the companion book it describes this queen as generous, warm, the person to tell your secrets to, a person who lets anyone in need into her house, magical, not a party person, likes quiet, shy, hard working, can be moody but can shake off these moods, focuses on others, good with animals and children, and, finally, intelligent.
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Today I feel like myself in the truest form. My mood has changed from happiness to sadness to happiness every few hours. I've felt the need to cuddle with my kitties. I've even done my daily job of scolding Luna for constantly begging for treats (even after I give her a few). I've worked hard, been kind even though I didn't want to be. This is me.

3 Card Spread

1. What will this deck teach me?

Journey:

I think this deck will take me on a spiritual or intellectual journey of the mind. The fact that it has a mile maker shows that this deck will be making me do a lot of walking. We're going on a journey together.


2. What does this deck require of me?

Gift:

This one I find hard to interpret because I don't know if it means I will give something up, like the deck, or receive the gift of knowledge due to working hard with this deck.


3. What will our relationship be?

Hope:

I really do feel hope for this deck. I see tons of potential. I'm already in love with it. It was love at first sight. When I look at these cards, I don't see anything negative. Just hope, humor, and happiness. And I'm hoping that will be our everlasting relationship.



*I got this spread from http://www.aeclectic.net/tarot/. Don't remember who made it. Sorry!